The north and south pole of your emotion

Just this afternoon, I was very happy to receive an email saying that I've gotten 4 tickets for my conferment. I was literally jumping with joy.

Hours later, I am feeling depressed. Mood is certainly swinging wildly..

I may have said this before. I am not a good conversationalist. Can't really engage in and stimulate conversations. I like to listen but am not attentive to details. Also, can't remember the conversations. Memory sucks. I suppose to be a good conversationalist, u need to know how to engage in conversations and listen carefully and properly. 

Someone said that having conversations with urself is schizophrenic. Probably it is really so. I always talk to myself and reply to it in my mind. I rarely say out my innermost thoughts and resort to crying to soothe my mind and soul. I wonder if I can communicate my feelings and thoughts properly through words and speeches. 

Inferiority is having fun with me. I am succumbing to it. 

Ah, it's not a really good way to end a Tuesday.