Non-existent

Sometimes, I feel like I shouldn't even exist in this world.

I don't feel alive.

Stupid

What the hell am I doing? Why am I wasting things that I shouldn't have?

I can never understand why I always ruin so many stuff.

Stupid stupid stupid stupid.

The north and south pole of your emotion

Just this afternoon, I was very happy to receive an email saying that I've gotten 4 tickets for my conferment. I was literally jumping with joy.

Hours later, I am feeling depressed. Mood is certainly swinging wildly..

I may have said this before. I am not a good conversationalist. Can't really engage in and stimulate conversations. I like to listen but am not attentive to details. Also, can't remember the conversations. Memory sucks. I suppose to be a good conversationalist, u need to know how to engage in conversations and listen carefully and properly. 

Someone said that having conversations with urself is schizophrenic. Probably it is really so. I always talk to myself and reply to it in my mind. I rarely say out my innermost thoughts and resort to crying to soothe my mind and soul. I wonder if I can communicate my feelings and thoughts properly through words and speeches. 

Inferiority is having fun with me. I am succumbing to it. 

Ah, it's not a really good way to end a Tuesday. 

Shocked

I'm shocked. Unprepared and confronted with an unexpected twist to what has been happening. Been prepping mentally for what's going to happen but totally caught unaware by the latest development.

To the spiritual beings up there, please please help me. Give me a peace of mind. Pls watch over me and see that things turn out smoothly.

Target accomplished!

After 2 years of hard work, I've finally completed my studies! Woohoo!!!

Now, I can look forward to R&R and concentrate on my career!

I have officially become a CDH!!!! Muhahahahahahahahahaha!~

Be focus please~

My final leap to completing my study but I have a tiny sense of complacency..
This is not doing any good to me..

I must not slack.. must be focus! Don't let your effort go to waste Wang Wang!

JIAYOU!!!!!!!! JIAYOU!!!!!!!! JIAYOU!!!!!!!!
STAY AND REMAIN FOCUS!!!!!!
MUST MAKE IT FOR THE FINAL ROUND!!!!!!!
LEAVE NO ROOM FOR REGRETS!!!!!!
WANG WANG! YOU MUST, WILL AND CAN MAKE IT!

Prepping for the real thing

Finally! My assignment's all done! I am so damn relief.. It's been a tiring two months with deadline every week... stretched to the limit... glad I survived it!!! ^_^

Now it's time to R&R before I prep for my final exam!!

Wang Wang will and must pass!
Study hard!
Study smart!
Leave no rooms for regrets!
Jia you!!!!!