Confessions of a Wang Wang Wonderbabe

Non-existent

2010-07-16T14:38:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, I feel like I shouldn't even exist in this world.

I don't feel alive.

Stupid

2010-03-25T15:40:00.002+08:00

What the hell am I doing? Why am I wasting things that I shouldn't have?

I can never understand why I always ruin so many stuff.

Stupid stupid stupid stupid.

The north and south pole of your emotion

2009-08-04T20:43:00.002+08:00

Just this afternoon, I was very happy to receive an email saying that I've gotten 4 tickets for my conferment. I was literally jumping with joy.

Hours later, I am feeling depressed. Mood is certainly swinging wildly..

I may have said this before. I am not a good conversationalist. Can't really engage in and stimulate conversations. I like to listen but am not attentive to details. Also, can't remember the conversations. Memory sucks. I suppose to be a good conversationalist, u need to know how to engage in conversations and listen carefully and properly.

Someone said that having conversations with urself is schizophrenic. Probably it is really so. I always talk to myself and reply to it in my mind. I rarely say out my innermost thoughts and resort to crying to soothe my mind and soul. I wonder if I can communicate my feelings and thoughts properly through words and speeches.

Inferiority is having fun with me. I am succumbing to it.

Ah, it's not a really good way to end a Tuesday.

Shocked

2009-05-07T19:25:00.002+08:00

I'm shocked. Unprepared and confronted with an unexpected twist to what has been happening. Been prepping mentally for what's going to happen but totally caught unaware by the latest development.

To the spiritual beings up there, please please help me. Give me a peace of mind. Pls watch over me and see that things turn out smoothly.

Target accomplished!

2008-12-31T08:18:00.004+08:00

After 2 years of hard work, I've finally completed my studies! Woohoo!!!

Now, I can look forward to R&R and concentrate on my career!

I have officially become a CDH!!!! Muhahahahahahahahahaha!~

Be focus please~

2008-10-14T00:42:00.003+08:00

My final leap to completing my study but I have a tiny sense of complacency..
This is not doing any good to me..

I must not slack.. must be focus! Don't let your effort go to waste Wang Wang!

JIAYOU!!!!!!!! JIAYOU!!!!!!!! JIAYOU!!!!!!!!
STAY AND REMAIN FOCUS!!!!!!
MUST MAKE IT FOR THE FINAL ROUND!!!!!!!
LEAVE NO ROOM FOR REGRETS!!!!!!
WANG WANG! YOU MUST, WILL AND CAN MAKE IT!

Prepping for the real thing

2008-09-24T22:16:00.002+08:00

Finally! My assignment's all done! I am so damn relief.. It's been a tiring two months with deadline every week... stretched to the limit... glad I survived it!!! ^_^

Now it's time to R&R before I prep for my final exam!!

Wang Wang will and must pass!
Study hard!
Study smart!
Leave no rooms for regrets!
Jia you!!!!!

Metallica Death Magnetic!

2008-09-12T21:09:00.001+08:00

Metallica latest album absolutely rocks! I really really love Death Magnetic album!!!
I would rate it 9.5/10... If I had gotten the special edition, I would definitely rate it 10/10!!

Metallica - The Day That Never Comes

2008-09-10T23:08:00.001+08:00

Fantastic!!!

Heroes Season 3 !!!

2008-09-09T13:41:00.002+08:00

Woohoo!!! Heroes Season 3 premiering on Sept 22! Woohoo!!!
I can't wait to watch!!!!!

Life's tough

2008-09-08T10:06:00.001+08:00

Life's tough as hell..

Will I see sunlight at the end of the road?
Or will I be devoured by darkness for eternity?
I wish I have the answer.

Metallica - Death Magnetic!!

2008-09-07T12:15:00.001+08:00

Metallica's latest album due for release on 12 Sept worldwide! Woohoo!!!

Check out some of their latest song!!

http://www.metallica.com/Media/Albums/albums.asp

All it takes

2008-09-03T11:10:00.007+08:00

I wonder why I was so calm when you made those decisions. I don't understand the reason for my reaction because I would have usually turned into a siao char bo and worry 24/7 when issues threatened to throw us out of our comfort zone..

I am however feeling stress.. will my measly pay be sufficient for the monthly household expenditure, credit card debts, unplanned purchases, contingencies and emergencies? Will my measly pay be enough to survive us both? It's a different situation all together when dual income earner are now changed to single income earner and the single income earner (which happens to be stupid me) earns much more lesser.

Even if we consume our savings, how long can our savings last? I certainly don't want to touch our hard-earned savings. It's easy to say we use our savings as this is only a transition period, but how temporary are we looking at? 3 months? 6 months? I don't want..

I could be thinking too much but thinking into the long term has been your teaching so far and I did reap some benefits from it..

But I know you are looking far ahead, for our future. It's not a easy decision for you as this has a huge impact on both of us.. I know your worries and concern.. But I just wanna say all it takes is determination, strength, foresight and courage to do what you are doing now.

I've always been supportive towards your decision and I certainly am now. My stand has never change. I know life will be tough but I am willing to bear with it and overcome everything with you. So.. let's just work hard towards the future ok? In the meantime, I will do all I can to support the family. All this while, you've been supporting me, now is my turn..

Be brave like a bear!

Be courageous like a lion!

Soar like an eagle!

Fly! Fly! Fly to greater heights!

Fight for brighter future and greener pasture!

Cannot let down those who's been supporting me!

Rrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaawwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaawwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaawwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hectic..Hectic..Hectic..BUT!

2008-09-01T17:51:00.005+08:00

Study :
- 2 assignments done
- 1 assignment deadline per week for the next 4 weeks
- Prep for exam after assignment's over

Work :
- Monthly account closing
- Tax computation for 2 YAs (Can faint~)
- Implementation of internal control (Faint x2)

Family :
- Currently sole income earner - GOTTA SAVE MONEY! CANNOT ANYHOW SPEND LIAO!!

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Be brave like a bear!

Be courageous like a lion!

Soar like an eagle!

Fly! Fly! Fly to greater heights!

Fight for brighter future and greener pasture!

Cannot let down peeps who's been supporting me!

Wish me luck!

Rrrrrrraaaaaaaawwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rrrrrrraaaaaaaawwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rrrrrrraaaaaaaawwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My Attraction Towards Samsung Omnia

2008-07-17T01:16:00.008+08:00

I've always been a huge fan of Sony Ericsson and have been using w850i for 2 years. However, the hp doesn't satisfy all my needs and desires but I was just contended with it. However, I now felt the need to change a new hp and began researching on the kind of hp that I wanted.

The craze over HTC diamond has gotten my attention and I admitted that I was very interested. This interest has however stopped when Samsung release the all new Omnia! Oh my! I am very impress with it!

Samsung Omnia has all the features I wish and wanted for. I am up till now still very impressed with the ultra slick design and the simple yet cool interface. I love the fact that I am further able to customise the interface to suit my preference! Wow! Samsung Omnia has really captivated my heart! ^_^

I love the fact that Samsung Omnia has long sustainability and I can use the phone for very long hours! Unfortunately Sony Ericsson w850i has pretty short lifespan and I have to charge the hp everyday, which can be pretty inconvienent at times! Thus, one of my primary concern in acquiring a new handset is sustainability and I am able to achieve my needs with Samsung Omnia! Weeeee!!!!

One major attraction I had towards Samsung Omnia is it's 5-megapixel camera and LED flash!!
5-megapixel!!!!!!!!!!! Super duper wow!!!! The phone also has camera features such as Auto Focus, Image Stablizer, Smile Shot, Wide Dynamic Range (WDR), Face Detection! It's just like a camera! Except that it's on a mobile! I don't own a camera as I always take pictures with my w850i. However, the picture isn't often clear and I have contemplated numerous time to just buy a camera off the shelves. But, with Samsung Omnia, my wish of taking beautiful & clear pictures are fulfilled! I've been reading reviews and looking at those pictures taken with Samsung Omnia. I am really bowed over! I loooove it!!! Imagine those wonderful pictures that I will be able to take with my hubby, godchildren and buddies using Samsung Omnia will be tremendously awesome lor!!!

My next love was the huge storage space that Samsung Omnia has! It as a 16GB memory with a SDHC expansion support and I can add another 16GB microSD card, totally 32GB all in! I can store sooo many multimedia files and pictures with Samsung Omnia! Samsung Omnia is a terribly fantastic phone!!!

I am extremely surprised by how light Samsung Omnia! I certainly didn't expect that as I was thinking that such a marvellous handset should be pretty heavy. I was truly wrong!

I've read up numerous reviews on Samsung Omnia and my love for it has deepen every minute! Samsung Omnia has everything that I wish for and I have been talking to my hubby everyday about it! Lol!!!!! When I knew that Samsung is holding a contest to let bloggers win a brand new Samsung Omnia, I just can't let this opportunity slip by! I truly wish to own a set of Samsung Omnia!!! Please let me win okie? ^_^ Yay!

To Samsung peeps, you have successfully win over a new fan with Omnia!!!

Love love love love Omnia! It's da phone!!!! Muack!!!!!

Smooth smooth!!!

2008-06-03T20:34:00.001+08:00

Yippy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yippy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yippy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yippy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yippy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yippy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yippy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yippy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I pass all the subjects!!! Yay yay yay!!!!!
Left last semester and will then graduate!!!

WOOHOO!!!!!!!
Degree here I come!!!!!

Please please!!!!

2008-05-10T02:39:00.002+08:00

Please let me pass Tax, Audit, Accounting Theory!!!!!

Muz pass!!! Will pass!!! Can pass!!!

Please heed my prayers!!! Pass all the 3 modules!!!!!

*Pray very hard*

新年快樂!!

2008-02-06T16:50:00.000+08:00

恭賀新禧!! 新年快樂!! 鼠年行大運!!

恭喜發財!! 万事如意!!
年年有餘!! 心想事成!!
富贵吉祥!! 花开富贵!!
歲歲平安!! 步步高升!!
龙马精神!! 身體健康!!

For Shawn, Johnson and me: 學業進步!! 美夢成真!!

旺旺!!!!!!!!
旺旺!!!!!!!!
旺旺!!!!!!!!
旺旺!!!!!!!!
旺旺!!!!!!!!
旺旺!!!!!!!!
旺旺!!!!!!!!
旺旺!!!!!!!!

^_^

Bad!!!!

2008-01-11T11:51:00.000+08:00

I've been a bad girl. I didn't go class faithfully.

Reminder : Must attend all classes !

1 MORE YEAR TO GO. DON'T SLACK!!!!! DON'T LEAVE ANY ROOM FOR REGRETS!!!!!
NO MORE REGRETS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Exhausted..Tired..Fatigued..

2008-01-07T16:49:00.000+08:00

I am soooooo tired!!!!!!!!! -_-

Tired from lack of sleep..
Exhausted from weekend activities (Karaoke and bowling)..
Body aching from 5 hours of bowling..
Mentally weary from 3 days of lessons last week (Wed-Fri) and this week (Mon-Wed)..

I need 96 hours of uninterrupted beauty sleep!!!!!

Spree & School Holiday

2007-12-31T09:59:00.001+08:00

This December, I went on a spending spree, damn shiok!!!!!! Woohoo!!!!!!!

Bought 3 tops, 3 blouse, 2 skirts, 2 bags, 1 shoes.
Intending to buy 4 more tops, 1 jeans, 1 mid waist cardigan, 1-3 necklace, 3-6 knickers, 2-3 bras next year! Yippy!!!!

Also bought a lot of stuff for the house and used up all my $800 Taka voucher.
Yesterday bought 3 albums with hubby. Had a crazy and fun time watching those old MTVs of Pet Shop Boys.. Men... sure bring back memories..

Plus hor! I had my first taste of Krispy Kreme donuts! Serious wacking lor!!!! Thanks QY and Ely!!!!! Muack!

Overall, I really had an enjoyable school holiday. Only wish my holidays didn't end so fast.. but then again.. all good things must come to an end right? So cliche!!!!

Time to Bi Guan Xiu Lian again hahaha!!!!!!

Wang Wang all the way yo!!!!!

Bye bye 2007! Hello 2008!

2007-12-31T09:30:00.000+08:00

1 year pass so fast! It's tata 2007 and ello 2008 le!!!!!

1 more year of study to go.... starting school in 2 days time. Omg! Soooo fast!!!!
Must study hard and pass all! Have decided to reward myself by touring Japan after I complete my studies!!!! Woohoo!!!!! Gonna start saving up so I can spend till I drop in Japan!!!!

Happy 2008 everybody!!!!

Time flies

2007-12-13T22:36:00.000+08:00

I passed all my papers! The results came as a sweet shock to me. :)

Time flies.. studied for 1 year le.. 1 more year to go..

I must pass all my remaining subjects within each semester!!!!!

Gambaette!!!!!!!

Update

2007-10-31T23:40:00.000+08:00

Right now, I am in the midst of exam.. Just took 1 paper today. Will pray hard that I pass!!!!!
One more paper to go, that's on Monday! Hope I will pass!!!!

This exam has made me realise something. As one grow old, memory retention get shorter and it's much harder to digest new information.

It's like for one moment, I can remember the important pointers and the mistakes that I made, the next moment, I am committing the same error again. Also, writing theory answers became harder as I take slightly longer time to let all those information be scanned through in my brain before I can find the suitable answer. Kns!!!!!

Confidence dropped a little.. I remember during my teens, I was excellent in remembering histories and theories. Once, I even got the award for top student in history and literature lor!! I was also able to comprehend information much faster and can do those problem questions faster. Now, it's the complete opposite to the current me.

The only thing I am better now is at time management, restricting myself to finishing all exams questions ahead of time time and to have some spare time to check my workings...

Sounds contradicting hor.. If I take longer time to answer my questions, how can I still have enough time to check through my work??? I dunno, I'm baffled. Hahahaha!!!

After my exam, I going to play a lot of Brain Age to train my brain and increase memory retention... Hope every bit of this will help me in the future! Lol!!!

Also, in November, I am changing my job scope.
From financial accounting, I will be doing :
Corporate Finance
Internal Audit
Merger and Acquisition

Will have tons of analysis and reports to do! Grrrr!!!
In time to come, I will be reporting directly to the CFO and Head of Audit Committee.

But will I have a pay raise to justify the new workload? Dunno leh..hope got lor!
My CFO am getting me to go EY for a 3 week internship to learn internal audit..

Back to studying le, need to cram information into the aging brain of mine. Don't age anymore on me please Brain Wang Wang! I beg you!!!

Mahjong Time!!!!!

2007-06-07T20:10:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!!! My favourite past time!!!!!!!!!
Overnite mahjong woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!

I have yet to play mahjong since April due to exams! Now is time to relax and have fun with my favourite game!!!!!!!

Yippy yippy yay yay yay yay!!!!!!!

旺旺 for me! Yay yay!!!!!!!!!!!

旺旺!!!! 旺旺!!!! 旺旺!!!!
旺旺!!!! 旺旺!!!! 旺旺!!!!

Scary July!

2007-06-06T22:07:00.000+08:00

I tremble with fear at the thought of July and must ensure that I enjoyed and played to my maximum in June.

Come July, I am studying 3 totally unfamiliar subjects :
- Business Finance
- Corporate Accounting
- Small Business and The Accountant

In the past semester, I undertook 1 subject (Financial Accounting) which is my area of expertise as it's what I faced at work. Not being arrogant, I had the highest confidence in this subject and felt I would breeze through the paper and passed with flying colours. I did. This paper in fact helped pulled up my average GPA.

The subjects I will be taking in the new semester sounded totally unfamiliar and I heard from my cousin that 1 of the course is particulary project intensive and it had a 60% weightage for the course. Damn scary!!

Plus in July, the company is changing a new accounting software and will be extremely busy.
PLUS, I am facing audit in July! Damn! My year end closing is June and my MD told my manager that by hook or by crook we need to get ready for July audit! Wah lau eh! *Sweat*

July... stress arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Arr-ed finished le. Time to face July. O+O

Mixed Feeling

2007-06-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

I was very happy to know that I passed all my papers and can move on to the next module.
To top it all, my good friend Kellyn also passed all and we can be class & project mates for the next 3 subjects.

However, 1 of my classmates failed her paper. We had promised each other to be project mates for the forthcoming new subjects and I was sad when I heard this.
I sincerely hope her appeal will be successful.

Buddha bless her.

ALL PASSED!!!!!

2007-06-06T14:02:00.000+08:00

I PASSED MY COST MANAGEMENT PAPER ALSO!!!!!!

WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PASSED ALL 3 PAPERS!!!!!

CAN PROCEED TO NEXT STAGE LE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anticipation..

2007-06-06T13:52:00.000+08:00

Left 10 more minutes till the release of my last paper!

Am eagerly anticipating the result!

The wait is sooooooo long!!!!! Soooo scary!!!!! But so exciting!!!!!!!!!

Please let me pass!!!!!!

2 down!!! 2 worries gone!!

2007-06-06T13:21:00.000+08:00

I passed Financial Accounting!!!!!!!

Woohoo!!!!!!!!

Yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay yay !!!!!!

Left 1 more paper to go!!!!! Please let me pass!!!!!!!!

Visual DNA

2007-06-01T14:34:00.000+08:00

Seeing Wen's Visual DNA's test interested me and I decided to try too!

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

Opinion :
** I am not a high-time roller leh. I dun luv top quality nor do I luv high-end glamour. Maybe it's juz the pics that interest me ba.

** Yes! I am a drifter! I am always drifting off~ no wonder hubby always gets irritated by me. Tokyo drift!

I wonder if we know
How they live in Tokyo (hai!)
If you see it, AND you mean it
Then you know you have to go
Fast and furious (kita) (Drift, Drift, Drift)
Fast and furious (kita) (Drift, Drift, Drift)

** This is so true!! I am a 100% certified love bug! I fall in love a thousand times a day.. with my hubby! ^_^

Our 6th Wedding Anniversary

2007-06-01T09:16:00.000+08:00

While having breakfast with my colleagues, I was lamenting to them that my hubby is the world's most unromantic guy and I wouldn't have much expectation on how we gonna celebrate our wedding anniversary.

I was wrong. Totally wrong.

My hubby is those kind that won't buy roses unless specifically being instructed to by his wife.
Where got liddat one!!!

Me: Dear, will you be buying flowers for me?
Hubby: Why? Very expensive leh and flowers don't last long. You want fake flowers anot?
Me: Why you give your wife fake flowers? Very insincere leh!
Hubby: Ok, then I go buy real one lor. What flowers you want?
Me: *Close to banging wall* You mean you don't know my favourite flowers?
Hubby: Scarely I buy rose, u dun like.
Me: You mean rose is my favourite flower?
Hubby: If you don't want rose, then wat you want??
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Me: Sulking in one corner. >.<

Surprisingly, he actually initiated to buy flowers for me on our wedding anniversary!!
*jaws dropped*

After springing the flower surprise on me, he then took me to a fancy restaurant for dinner. Weeeee! I'm in dreamland!

Shunjuu serves extremely good sumiyaki grill Jap food! I absolutely loved loved it!!!

Even their welcome dish is refreshing and delicious!

Dish 1 : Shitake Nikuzume (This dish is a must for shitake fan!)

Dish 2 : Sashimi - Sword Fish and Ark Shell !

(I literally go crazy with this dish! It's sooooo yummy!)

Dish 3 : Jap Cold Wheat Noodles with Raw Quail Egg!

Dish 4 : Jap style Scallops with Garlic!!

Dish 5 : Last but not least. SOFT SHELL CRAB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hubby really can spoil me crazy.. if he wants!

Happy Wedding Anniversary Darling! Love you much much!!!

Late Post ~ 愛心夜宵

2007-06-01T08:59:00.000+08:00

While studying for my exam in Apr/May, hubby made 愛心夜宵 for me when I complained that I was hungry. Looks superbly delicious, isn't it?

1 down!!! 1/3 worry gone!!! ^_^

2007-05-31T03:05:00.000+08:00

I passed company law paper!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Woohoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yay yay yay yay yay yay !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay yay yay yay yay yay !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hope with this happy news, my other 2 paper can also pass!!!

*Muz pray hard!!!!!*

New Look!

2007-05-19T17:59:00.000+08:00

I changed a new hairstyle!
Hubby said I look like a schoolgirl now. Haha!!

My Condolences

2007-05-19T10:20:00.000+08:00

Just a few weeks ago, I chanced upon an ex-colleague of mine at the 7-11 4D station.
We didn't exchange greetings though as he seems to be in a rush.

Yesterday, Pauline called me and said he died, the cause of death was not known at that point in time. It could either be a heart attack or car accident. Worse, it could be both.
He didn't get to see his family for the last time as he was pronounced dead when the ambulance was rushing him to hospital.

I was shocked. My heart sank.

My deepest condolences to his family members. My thoughts are with them.

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I wanted to more about him but I'm emotionally and mentally drained now. Been thinking all night about the past work encounters we both shared, the jokes he cracked which makes Pauline and me laugh out loud.

Tony, thanks for those wonderful memories. I won't forget you.

Rest In Peace.
May Buddha have mercy on your soul.

The Year of the Pig for Wang Wang

2007-03-23T22:20:00.000+08:00

Belated Happy Ooi Ooi Year!!!

( ^ O ^ )

Ok, that doesn't really looked like a pig, was my best attempt though. I am in finance line, so don't really expect me to be good in arts!

Anyway, I find that the Pig year has been a great start for me.

Here's what happen to me:

- 100% wang wang win win track record in mahjong (Yippy!)
- Got 1.5 months bonus in February (Yay yay!)
- Got 10% increment in March (So far, got two pay-rise since I started working for this company last July) (Yippy yay!)
- Got promoted to Accounts Executive (Yay yippy!)
- Got 3 high distinction for projects and test (Yippy yippy yay yay!)
- My insurance mature and I gotten $900 plus extra cash (Yay yay yippy yippy!)

I am truly hoping the good luck will last!!!

Today, I attended my last lecture for Financial Accounting. Am feeling a bit sad because I like my lecturer a lot, he is very patient and is a very nice guy. Although sometimes I couldn't understand his India-Indian accent, I really tried my best to listen.

Exams gonna start in late April for 3 papers and am getting a bit stress. I will be starting my revision this weekend.

All the best Wang Wang!
Must study hard and work hard!
You will pass!

Go go Wang Wang!

Bad Wang Wang!!!

2007-01-13T03:32:00.000+08:00

I did something extremely terrible. Two days ago, I was in an extremely bad mood. It's probably due to extreme stress from work and frustration arising from lack of understanding in Company Law's lecture. In the car, I warned Hubby that he better don't antagonise me as I am feeling very grouchy.

He did it and it was a successful attempt...

I guess he purposely tried to frustrate me so I can vent out...

However, what came out from my mouth surprised me even. I sprouted profanities seriously at him and gave him a piece of my mind.

I immediately regretted it. However, being still highly irritated at him, I just said "When I cool down, I will say sorry to you."

I seriously think what I said is complete bullshit lor!

When you started saying vulgarities, you should IMMEDIATELY apologise. Of course I can argue that when I am so pissed off, I became irrational and said stuff without thinking but what's the point in hurting your loved ones using those super nan-ting words and regretting it later? Before you even said them, you should consider the impact of your words and how the receiver will feel.

I was extremely guilty.... to the point I feel like crying because I hate myself at that point in time.

I think 30 seconds later, which was just the right time as I arrived at the school foyer, I said sorry. Hubby just smile at me and kiss me, which makes me feel even more sad but touched. Later on, as I was making my way to the lecture hall, I shed a few tears...

Why do I ever did such things? There were occassions where I say vulgarities but I was only joking or it was just a phrase which didn't meant anything at that point in time. However, I was seriously meaning what I said when I scolded him with all those nan-ting words. I absolutely hated myself for that.

I decided that no matter how angry or upset I am, I won't ever want to say those super nan-ting words to him because the aftermath is really unbearable. The feeling of being totally disgusted and hating yourself makes you just want to jump off a building.

So, here's my 2007 resolution, in no order of preference as they are all task that I have to accomplish :

(1) Work hard for my study and leave no regrets for tomorrow. No regrets = no nightmare.
(2) Pay my bills dutifully and immediately, leave no room for excuses like "forget to pay" and cause event that may make Hubby upset. (P.S. Shawn, thanks for the wallpaper on paying bills on time! I absolutely love it and it's still on my desktop! Luv ya!!!!)
(3) Don't say anymore those nan-ting words, no matter how angry/upset I am, as with the above opinion.
(4) Start saving and be financially independent (Dear dear, I saved $250 this month le!)

As with the badge that Hubby bought for me in 2007, I must be one good

BITCH!!!!!

It means : Babe In Total Control of Herself!

Mabel & Vernon

2006-12-28T00:19:00.000+08:00

Presenting to you, the two cutest & sweetest children..

Sweety Mabel (born on the same day and month as me)

Cutie Vernon (born on the same day and month as my brother)

Awwww.. so adorable and kawaii!!! I love them to pieces..

To be continued..

2006-12-18T22:07:00.000+08:00

Didn't have time to sample the Ohrin Apples and provide comments on this as I just came back from the SIM orientation programme today. Looking at the study schedule , I realise that I will have to start studying this week as I have gotten my study materials. Must be very driven and be self-motivated!

Wang Wang Jia You wor!!!

Will be extremely busy from now till end of December and I must plan my time well :
- 19th : Tidy my dinner table and shelves to get prep for study (Hubby, please help!)
- 20th onwards : Study at least everyday for 1-2 hours.
- 23rd : Afternoon shopping for clothes and inner-beauty!
- 23rd : Evening meet my girlfriends for pre-Xmas celebration, probably at Dragonfly.
- 24th : (a) Attend Xmas dinner at inlaw place (b) After dinner, to proceed to my godchildren's home at Choa Chu Kang (CCK) for Xmas celebration (c) At 12.30am, leave CCK to go friend's place for another Xmas celebration.
- 25th : Buy stationaries and textbooks. If there's spare time and I am not tired (after the 3x epic Xmas celebration), to watch Curse of the Golden Flower starring my Zhou Ge Ge !!! ^_^
- 26th till 29th : Study and work OT.
- 30th : Study.
- 31st : Attend New Year Eve celebration at Hubby's best friend place at Tampines.

Lastly, on 3rd Jan 2007, my course officially commence !!!!!

Damn I will be very busy!

Note : I must also factor in time for mum, hubby, friends and household chores! Must relax once a while as work and no play makes Wang Wang a dull girl!

The Finest Harvests of Japan - Part 1

2006-12-17T23:23:00.000+08:00

Went shopping with Hubby at Lido Isetan today and afterwards proceed to Pepper Lunch for food. Was Yummy! Certainly make my day to eat Salmon Pepper Rice. *Drool*

While I was leaving Pepper Lunch, something caught my eye. "The Finest Harvests of Japan" was displayed prominently in Isetan supermarket. Being curious, I pulled Hubby along and made my way to the signage.

What caught my eye was really unbelievable! Watermelon going at 99 bucks! Sourgrapes selling at 69 bucks! Wow! It was said to be of super top grade and what's shocking was that there were boxes to store these fruits and these boxes were extremely glamourous looking! To top this up, there's even a saleslady who patiently answer all questions ranging from the fruits taste to how the climate produces these fruits!

After listening to the explanations for around 10 minutes, I bought these..

14 bucks for 4 apples !!!!!

The Saleslady explained to me that Fuji apples are extremely crunchy and superbly sweet. Ohrin apples are also extremely crunch but slightly sour and these apples are the top favourites among Japanese ladies as it's appetising yet filling and can replace a meal.

Upon reaching home, I hurrily took out a Fuji apple and began to admire it. The texture was really smooth yet firm and it was humongous!!!!

Remember those cooking shows where the guests were given the chance to taste the chef's cooking and their facial expressions shows nothing but intense explosive happiness and joy? I knew exactly how they feel! Fuji Apple = Subarashi! Oishii! Yuunaru! Amatsu!

The first bite was heavenly. When my teeth broke the apple surface, sweet sweet juices burst from the meat and squirt into my mouth! It really was the sweetest apple I have tasted!! It was so mouth-watering and addictive that I immediately took my second bite.

I am having multiples apple-gasm.

I am flying on cloud nine! This certainly make my day!!!

I shall continue my adventures on Ohrin Apples tomorrow.

Fuji apples did too much ecstasy and excitement to my soul and tastebud. I slept like a baby afterwards. Hahaha!

Yes, yes. I know. It's just apples only what... but hey, it's from The Beautiful Land of Japan! Banzai! Nihon Matsudai!

Some Updates..

2006-12-16T13:26:00.000+08:00

Wang Wang going to study! Yippy!!!!!
Looking at the course schedule for the first semester, it seems pretty daunting.

Nevertheless, I am going all out now in order to secure that degree cert!

Please bless me with your best wishes and support!

I just wanna add that if I may/have/will/did irritate or anger anyone over this 2 year due to my short-fused temper that arise from stress and exhaustion from my studies & work, I sincerely apologies in advance. Please bear with me and I will try my best to control my emotions!

Go Go Wang Wang! Gambaette yo!

Also just wanna add I am now having the best work-time of my life.
Being happily stressed at work and my boss appreciates and recognise my efforts (FINALLY!) and mentioned will take good care of me (I hope I will get good increment next year)!
It feel's good when you are being appreciated and recognised isn't it! ^_^

I did something bad though, slightly neglect my health due to work but now am working hard towards building my resistance. Hubby made me signed up for a spa package! 96 sessions total for full body massage and hydro-milk bath to cure me of my eczema! I must also focus on my health because health not good = study + work suffer. Definitely no no for Wang Wang!!! Again, Gambaette ne!!!!!

My "Oscar" Speech

2006-06-07T23:54:00.000+08:00

Today is the 75th day of my absence. These 75 days will remain a painful but memorable journey. Scars will remain but they will heal.

The journey was tedious yet rewarding.
It's dark yet light was beaming radiantly and brightly at the other end.
It's mentally, physically and emotionally exhausting.
It threatens countless times to suck the living soul out of me. Just quit and give up.
Why not take the easy way out?
Why must you walk the road paved with debris?

There were times I felt I've exceeded my tolerance level. There were times where tears just flow freely down my cheeks while I am in a taxi on the way back or while I'm at home. I was screaming inside to just run away, to just quit. I'm a person who easily resigns to my fate.
The thing is, I am a frequent quitter when things get tough.
Frankly, I am just weak.

But what these 75 days had shown me was a discovery to the other side of me.
Self-motivation, perseverance, never-say-die attitude, determination and love were there to rescue me from the abyss.

Just last week, I returned home one day, feeling low and bruised (from a brutal verbal fight with colleagues) after a 15-hour work day. I couldn't contain my sadness and anger and immediately cried on my hubby's shoulder.
He told me "I'm very proud of you. You have become stronger, just that you didn't know." (This is roughly what he said; I couldn't remember the exact phrase)

I have no intention to recap the journey but I wish to express my emotions to the following people :

(1) To some of my current colleagues, the knowledge and experience I had is something I wouldn't exchange.
- Thanks for imparting the right knowledge to me (Though they are minor and are hardly considered valuable, I will still take them with me.)

- Thanks for misleading me with many wrong information (which you guys jolly well know they are wrong). It's because of all these wrong stuff that I went the extra mile to do research on wherever possible areas I could think off (never mind the scolding and impatient intonation I have had from calling people to enquire).
I gain valuable and true knowledge in the process. I particularly enjoy the part where I corrected all your wrongs and seeing the defeated look on your face. I became wiser as I am armed with these expertises which you guys lack. Thanks!

- Thanks for giving me such seemingly impossible deadline, if not for them, I wouldn't have reacted fast and accomplish those missions. I probably will remain a laidback and relax person.

- Thanks for giving me works that practically speaking, required 4 person to perform (as judged by my superior and MD). I have really learnt how to prioritize my current work, on top of other 'Super urgent' work you guys keep loading on me. I completed them, on my own, without showing my displeasure in front of you guys. I have gotten better at controlling my facial expression. (I handled claims, operation, sales and other many stuff for you guys. I braved the storm that threatens to not end. So I think you all should be pretty free. Isn't it?)

- Thanks for bugging me every 5 mins, alternated between you guys, on the SAME issue. I learnt how to treat you all with a smile (even though I'm screaming bloody murder inside my heart) and say "I'm busy now but I will come back to you later".

- Thanks for the endless interruption, I learnt to constantly save my work and improve my memory of where I stopped so that I can attend to you guys.

- Lastly, thanks for the politics and the backstabbing. I am slightly stronger now and not easily hurt and not overly sensitive. I've learnt to fight back with a good memory of the actual events that transpired.

If it weren't for you guys, the 2 bosses wouldn't have trust me so much and have faith in my ability and show genuine concern for me. This is the first time that I have received an early confirmation with a good increment while I am only still serving my second month of the three months probation. Never mind the fact that I don't have any social life.

(2) To the rest of my colleagues, thanks for showing your true care and concern. You really meant well for me and never hold back your knowledge. We all know that we really wanted to help one another.

(3) To my parents, I am sure that what ever happens cuts deep into our heart and had sliced them to pieces. I do not wish to recap, my heart is still raw from those wounds.

- Mother, we have become closer. I love you really a lot and I really want the best for you. Take good care of your health now and don't enter into depression again. Try to sleep without taking sleeping pills nightly. Don't over think and worry about things, remember your promise to start a new journey. You still have me.

- Father, you made me extremely sad by your actions but I can't blame you for whatever happened 30 years ago between you and mum. Though both parties are at fault and it's the children who suffers most, especially so for me since brother is in China and I as your only child available here to talk to. All I can say is that you do whatever you are happy now since you have been tormented ever since after Mother gave birth to me. You will still be my father. Just remember what I have told you. I wouldn't recognise that woman and I have no intention to see her. I have only 1 mother.

(4) To my secondary school friends, sorry for not attending our gatherings even after I promised to go. I was held back by work and couldn't turn my back on it. Thanks for being understanding. Thanks for the care & concern via the sms replies. Thanks for not scolding me when I couldn't turn up. Thanks for waiting for me to turn up, which I didn't. For good or for worse, true friends understand each other and pull you along.

(5) To my other friends, sorry for disappearing. I simply don't have the energy to go out after my work. Thanks for being understanding to my situation.

(6) Pauline, thanks for your constant sms and your care and concern. I sense you are troubled but you do not wish to lay your troubles on my already burdened shoulders. Thanks for being thoughtful.

(7) Lastly, thanks to you, my dear. No amount of words can express my gratitude. You were there for me. For better or for worse, till death do us part. Love you baby, endlessly and eternally.

It's an experience that I think will make me a better person and hopefully a better wife.

Me

2006-03-24T19:12:00.000+08:00

My Horoscope Profile as an Employee :

Libra employees are detailed, dedicated workers with sensitive natures. Managers
and co-workers sometimes find them difficult to get a handle on.They pick up the energy of the office and are unable to prevent it from affecting them. Loud noise, flashy colors, and discordant vibrations will put them off so much that they will have difficulty fulfilling their obligations at work. One day they may seem like the most bright, hardworking, ambitious employee around. The next day they might be down, irritated, and unable to produce. Co-workers shouldn't fret when Libra employees are in a dark mood. It really won't last, as a happy state of mind can come over them just as quickly. When Libra employees are in a balanced frame of mind, they can be a powerful presence at work-they have a way of gracing everything they touch. Underneath that mess of moods, they really are basically happy and stable people. They are capable of profound logical thought and evaluate all sides of a situation before acting. They are one of the most intelligent Signs around. They are expert researchers and mediators. And their sensitivity to their environment makes them naturals at keeping things looking great. They will easily help others resolve conflicts and can act as a go-between with workers and management so that everyone ends up happy. If you want to keep your Libran worker smiling, give them the respect they are due and put them in a position where they can project their great charm and diplomacy. They won't be CONTENT to take orders for very long, either- make sure they are given increased responsibility.

My Current State :

State of Mind : Unhappy, Stress, Worried, Tired.
Mood : Extremely Dark
Feeling Down : Yes
Sensitive To Environment : Extremely
Appetitie : Rock Bottom

Happy state of mind never come to me quickly. It's a neverending nightmare.
Kill me. I feel like dying.

Reminiscence of the Final Day

2006-03-17T16:56:00.000+08:00

Time passes slowly today.
It feels as though Time is wanting me to appreciate the surroundings, the people I care.
Time is giving me my last chance to recall bits and pieces of events that happened during this 3 years.

And I did...

I have packed finish all my belongings and am bringing home 2 bags of stuffs.
Prior to today, I was bringing home a big bag everyday, since Wednesday.
Now, that's a total of 5 bags.
Gosh! So many stuffs I have here!!!

Less than an hour before I knock off work..

My story here is history.

My Sentiments

2006-03-17T11:02:00.000+08:00

It's sad to leave
You are not going to go back
To the same place
To the same people

Hold close to memories I will
To cherish them dearly
And never be forgotten

Bondage remains strong
Friendship last forever

What lies ahead
An exciting challenge
A refreshing change

Ending is but a beginning
My Beginning

Farewell ...

2006-03-16T21:22:00.000+08:00

After tomorrow, my time here has come to a close.

It has ended.

This 2 weeks pass by swiftly.
Time is in a rush and hastly speed you along... Urging you ...
Gone are the familiarity I have known ...
I'm still trying to come to the terms that I won't be seeing this certain bunch of likeable people on a regular basis.

After 3 years, I've took a step into the outside world again ...
The feeling of exposing myself to a new environment, new faces, new responsibilities felt strange but yet refreshing ...
Though I welcome the change, I've told myself I gotta be brave, be strong ... Be prepared to face the challenges that lies ahead ...
I enjoy this thought that I am gonna start afresh, be more determined and disciplined. Be in control of my destiny and life ...
I cherish the chance I have now, to have a better career with a good prospect...

But for now, till tomorrow ... I felt drained and weak ...
My heart is burdened and heavy ... emotion is on a rollercoaster ride ...
I worry whether Andrew will be able to cope with his workload that I have been handling for this past 3 years ... will he be able to handle Rick and have a smooth working relationship with him ... It's not easy handling USA projects ...
I worry whether Pauline will be able to cope with her workload in addition to teaching the two new staff and guiding Andrew ... Gosh, I will miss Pauline badly ...
I knew they were stressed when I said I am going to say bye bye to them. It's not easy dealing with the emotional baggage on top of having to perform in this extremely fast pace environment and excel to people's expectation and satisfy their needs ...
But I have to make the choice ... I dealt them this cold truth ...

This morning, a colleague came and ask why I want to leave ...
She can't bear to see me going ...
At that moment, I saw glimpse of tears in her eyes.
I was crumbled. I was torn internally.

Tomorrow, I am going to say bye to them. I fear that I will break down during my farewell lunch. I really hope I won't.

Pauline, Joyce, Lilian, Joanne, Theign Yie, Mike, Mohd, Ryan, Tony, Andrew ...
I really treasure the times when we were together. They are priceless ...
Those lunches, Korea and Chiangmai holiday, mahjong, partying, endless laughers and fun in Mohd's van, shopping trips, endless brainstorming, moments when we work together for a common goal ...
Gradually, I felt the bond we have ...
Gosh, they are really memorable ...
Thanks for your honesty, your guidance, your patience. Thanks for protecting me and the sacrifice made while protecting me. My eternal gratitude to you all ...
It's this humanly factor that makes me really can't bear to be apart from you all, not having to see you guys regularly.
Once a friend, forever a friend.

Especially to you Pauline ... we went through so much together. We pulled each other up when we were really down. We brave through our personal and work problems together. We celebrated with pure joy when the problems we solved met with fruitful results. We were really happy for each other when good things comes along our way. My confidante, my buddy, my little sister.. I will miss you. Do not forget me for I definitely won't..
We won't see each other daily but our thoughts will be with each other ...

To everyone of you, please do keep in contact ... forget me not ...
I hope we will meet up for coffees and such ...

I will cherish those memories and lock them in my heart forever.

My heartful thanks and gratitude for giving me this 3 wonderful years.

无印良品 - 珍重

谁能够划船不用桨
谁能够扬帆没有风向
谁能够离开好朋友
没有感伤

我可以划船不用浆
我可以扬帆没有风向
但是朋友啊
当我离你远去
我却不能不感伤

Doodoo Drivers

2006-03-15T11:42:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, you can't help wondering how did this person pass his/her driving test ?! Is the examiner blind?

I just don't understand.

Even though I don't have a driving licence, I know for sure I won't drive like those people I have encountered. I think...

Ever since hubby gotten a car, I can feel my blood boil whenever we were on the road.

Some doodoo idiotic people just dunno how to keep to their own lane when they are making a turn.
Just yesterday, as hubby and another driver were making a right turn from Orchard, that driver actually drove and cut to our lane and occupied almost 25% of the lane! Even though hubby slow down and highbeamed him, he just gave a bochup nonchalant look when I turn and face him angrily (We were in the inner lane). Neh neh de! Kenasai! Luckily hubby is a steady driver or else, I can't imagine the consequences.
Don't he just realise how dangerous that could be? So what if you are driving a toyota mpv har, you think there's no one else on the road except for you? Wake up la you dumdum fool!

There's another incident we faced a couple of days ago. We were cruising in the inner left lane and was about to make a turn when a car drove up very fast beside us. We thought nothing of it but as we were turning, he picked up speed, drove pass us and immediately switch to our lane without even bothering to signal. Wah liew! Both of the cars were so close to each other, within an armlength leh. Luckily hubby jam brake in time.
This time round, I didn't hesitate to reach over to the steering wheel and sounded a long BorrrrrrrBorrrrrrrr while cursing and swearing under my breath.
(Hey hey~ that's my virgin BorrrrrrrBorrrrrrrr leh! I felt delighted I did it!)

There's other incidents that makes me want to puke blood but it's tiring to list them out. Makes me sound like a complain queen...

Is there this gadget that allows the front passenger seat to have horns installed on the dashboard?
Or perhaps a gadget like the Xbox controller with 2 buttons where you can hold it?
This will be sooo damn cool siah.. I can merrily Borrrr at doo-dum driver! Hehe!

I'm really having half a mind to install more horns, scared the shit out of the driver when I Borrr them.. gonna save up for this but will still have to seek hubby's approval..gonna make sure my manja works this time!

Studygroup

2006-03-07T11:00:00.000+08:00

In 102 days from now, Studygroup is One Year Old!

The other day, I was watching American Idols, seeing those girls belting out their songs and I had a sudden urge to sms Hevun and remind him to book chalet for our One Year Anniversary. After having done that, I began to recall how we began to know each other and how our friendship grew over the past 9 months. I began to think of each and everyone of us and an inspiration hits me! I have decided that I shall do a short write up of each of them!

Qiaoyun - The Pia Zui Tao-Tao :
Bubbly! Always squeals naturally and jump up and down when she's excited. Just like a child! Lively and energetic! At times, her reaction are so cute you just want to pinch her cheeks!
She can be so outspoken and unreserved one moment but suddenly you will see her snuggly comfortably in a corner reading novels quietly and you just wonder where she disappear to.
Full admiration for her courage, bravery and determination to realise her dreams. Sometimes, I wish I possessed these qualities of hers to chase my dreams. Oh well, nevermind la.
This may sound confusing but she appears to me an idealistic and realistic girl. Very interesting girl. Her big eyes so 水汪汪 you sometimes will kena electrocuted by her when she sits there and stare at you! I can see why the Goonfather falls in love with her. Haha! I think Goonfather already Chao-Ta liao. Keke.

Shawn - The Goonfather (aka Goon-du) :
Definitely a super super corny, spontanteous and funny person! Hearing him talk everytime never fail to make me laugh and you just won't know what stuff comes out from his mouth. It's totally unimaginable! His every movement and intonation always very damn comical!! Haha! Even his laughter is very unique and infectious! The Joker in our studygroup is really fun to be with. No wonder Wenwen always comprain to Qiaoyun about him. He is really untahanable funny!! Our big baby, knowing him certainly adds joy to my life. He is a very trustworthy , dependable and credible person. Still, the witty side of him stands out!!

Kelvin aka My Shifu - Studygroup's Official Kelpedia and Manja King :
Hands down! Salute! Sedia! On your knees and bow to Kelpedia The King! He is sooo knowledgeable to the extent that it is at times frightening! Wah liew!!! He became my shifu because he knows the inside out of how to be a professional Swashbuckler when I was playing EQ2. He knew all the nitty gritty things that I sometimes was very surprised when he tell me. How the hell did this guy analyse and play to perfection a gaming character! It's soo surreal! BUT hor, he is also very very uncle leh! He can think and think, ponder and ponder whether to get what kind, pattern and shape for a spectable! *Faint* He is so uncle-like that it doesn't fit the image of being Kelpedia King leh. But that's why he is so cute at times.
Did I also mentions he is superbly good at manja-ing? Wah Piang leh! When he manja ar, it's so tei-ing leh! All the Uhhhh Ahhhh Ohhhh comes out and he instantly turned into a 5 year old kid. His deadly weapon is pouting his lips, sway from right to left and hum Ohhhhhhh!
Omg! I can really faint!!!
Someone solve this equation for me, what is the answer for Uncleness + Childlikeness?
I never met someone who can pinch and poke people so painful! It's so painful that you can feel the itchness on your scalp and steam comes out from your head! I ever kena bruises on my shoulder and back before!!! Hahaha!!
P.S. He is my shifu you know.. so need to pay a bit of respect to him by saying more stuff about him. Haha!

Eileen aka Shi-Mu - Amazing Wonderbabe :
Eileen is a perfect match for Kelpedia. Both of them are matchmade in heaven!
Like Kelpedia, she's so knowledgeable to the extent that it can be scary at times. She was often the saviour of game groups when we were playing games like Guesstures or Cranium! Her limitless energy and enthusiasm reminds me of Uzumaki Naruto and Kurosaki Ichigo, both my most beloved anime character. They just keep getting stronger and their power knows no boundaries. I find her very charming and am very attracted to her determination and seriousness to thrive. (P.S. Shifu, don't worry ar, I am straight!)
She has this innate ability to make people listen to her. I find that she's a natural spokesperson and this makes her sexy! She's so level-headed and clear-minded that she's the best person to confide in if you are facing problems. Naturally, she is also a very good listener. Talking to her always make me feels happy and enlighten. :)

Wenwen - Studygroup Blur Princess :
She's soooo cute!!! She's sooooooooooo blur!!! Sometimes, I have to do a check on her. A couple of times, I encounter the following scenario :
1) She smsed me to check on what time we have arranged for Friday's gathering but we are actually meeting the next day!
2) I smsed her to make sure she know we are meeting today but she thought is tomorrow! Lol!!! The ultimate thing happened when we were planning to travel to KL. She thought we are leaving on Saturday morning and coming back Sunday evening and she didn't pack. We Were in fact leaving Friday night and coming back on Monday evening! Omg! /Salute! Cannot tahan her blurness siah. Very endearing and silly! Her blurness can sometimes make you bang wall but when she say "Whaaaaaat" with that naive innocent tone of hers just makes you wanna bang a wall of fluffy pink candy instead~
One more thing I must say, she's a very good cook!!! Compared to her, I think my skill is a big fat negative zero out of 10 marks. Haiz! Very depressing siah!!
I got so many things to say about her and her behaviour (Nothing bad ok?). She stayed at my place a couple of times and I think I can write an essay about her. Haha!

Hevun - Mr Faithful :
Hevun Knows! Hevun Knows It All! He reminds me of those lead actor from those Taiwan Idol love dramas. He is so Chi-Qing and faithful to love that it's very heart wrenching to see him being not reciprocated. I hope that one day, a girl will come along who truly appreciate and reciprocate his love. /Sayang.
Next in line to the royal family of Manja is Hevun the Manja Prince! When you call or talk to him, he can say Hello? so kiddily leh! Very manja very teh! Haha! Like Kelpedia, he is pretty good at pouting lips! I really can't imagine if they gang up and manja together. I will just drop dead siah! LOL! Both of them have already maxed out their manja skills!

Minou - The Undisputed Manja Queen :
Her Manja-ness is godly. Her Manja-ness is champion. Wow man! She's exactly just like those super kawaii gal from Jap anime when they manja! I ever experienced her manja before and my heart literally dropped! I feel so 心软 when she manja. I know why Kerr cannot bear to be angry at her. Her manja-ness reminds you of those dolls dressed in vintage clothes with soft silky curly hair adorned with ribbons. You will want to treat her tenderly and hold her so gently and softly. You will want to treasure this precious forever.
Though she is younger than me, I find that she's more mature than me. Very often, I was surprised when she express her views. I like the fact that she's brutally honest and straight to the point. It's like having a pin piercing through your skin. It's hurting sometimes but I needed someone like her around. I tend to hide in a nutshell and I'm blessed to have such friends around that make you wake up your idea and enlighten you.

Kerr - Mr Gentleman and Mr Nice :
Kerr is a really nice, humble and Chin-Chai guy! I like his laughter a lot. It's feels carefree. He will Hur-Hur-Hur in quick succession, don't know why but it feels good to hear!
From his behaviour, I feel that he is a real gentle and loving husband. I have no qualms that he is going to have a very 幸福 family.
He is very sincere and treat friends really good. He will pay for supper and refuse to take your money by saying "Small amount la! Next time you treat ba!"
Awwww.. so sweet.
He will also volunteer to send my hubby and me back to the west even though he is staying in the North! His reasoning was "I don't really drive often, so it's ok la. Come, I send you home."
Awwww..so sweet.
Both him and his wife are very sweet person so my conclusion is that it's another couple that's matchmade in heaven! I was very surprised when I saw him and his wife playing pool and they are good at it! I know they are into reading, homely stuff and etc but I didn't know about this sporty side of them! A few times, I even tio Ciat by both of them! Wow... I think there is a lot of things that I have yet to discover about Kerr. When I started to know more about him, my mind always goes Ding Ding! Discovery Xp! I hope I will Ding Ding more!

I'm terribly excited for their wedding. I wish both of them lifelong bliss, may they treasure and love each other deeply!

Potpot - Miss Bouncy :
Potpot is always bouncing around merrily! She has ample bosom so when she is bouncing around, you can't help noticing her assets and your eyes will automatically move up and down! Haha! Sorry ar, even I also can't help watching! She's fleshy on the right places and she has an hourglass body frame! /Drool.
She is a very happy-go-lucky gal, full of energy. Very chatty and fun-loving. She's also very blur!!! In EQ2, after instructions are given, the whole party will run together in a same direction but many times we will see her HP drop and we realise that she had ran off by herself even though she had Oked on the instruction. We also have to very often play the game of Search and Rescue because she will just say "Where are you all?? I think I am lost!" Lol!

Isaiah - Mr Bright and Cheerful :
This guy is always so positive, so bright, so cheerful.
When he greets you on the phone, it's really heartwarming to hear such a sunny and warm greeting. It's like all your endless troubles disappear when he say "HELLO HELLO! Yo yo you!" and laugh heartily.
His never-say-no attitude left a deep impression on me. He is always a Yes! man and will do everything to the best of his ability. There's an incident whereby hubby PC kaput, he actually came to pick up the CPU, trouble shoot the problem, fix the CPU and deliver back very promptly. His service is so quick and efficent. Despite hubby's persistence, he didn't want to charge us for his services rendered. "Friends la, no problem! Chia me supper can liao!" Steady la!
You know, this characteristic of his is exactly the same as Kerr, no wonder they are siblings!
For both of them, nothing is more important than having fun together as a studygroup gang. Kudos to them la!

Joey - Dreamy :
Joey is very very pretty! She has beautiful dreamy eyes and you can't help gazing at her. Like Qiaoyun, both of them have the china doll hairstyle. No wonder both of them are so pretty!!
In my opinion, she's so mild-temper and easy-going! I find that she is very relax, very laidback. If the world comes tumbling down, she will just retreat in a very relax manner. Lol!
As with the other girls, she just love shopping! Like the rest of the Studygroup's girls (except me), she has a slender frame and it's easy for her to get nice pretty clothes. There's once when I saw her at Far East Plaza and she was carrying many shoppings bags! Lol.
Sometime ago, I got a shock when Macdonald's Fan-tastic Burger advertisement was broadcoast on TV. Omg! That girl look so much like Joey!! But Joey is definitely prettier than her!! Lol!

Erwin - The Vainpot :
This guy is very vain siah! He will ask people if he looks nice in pink or red. If someone buys stuff online, he will also want to buy. His resistance to temptation is Zero! The other time, Eileen and I were discussing in forum what camera to buy, we began to look at different models and posted our comments. Immediately he felt tempted to buy one and got it pretty soon. Probably it's due to his passion ba. Still, spending that few hundreds of dollars so fast means something!
This guys really love drinking man. He will often tell us to go drinking. If I drink too many times in a row will make me have phobia. I don't think he will ever feels this way lor!
He is so relax and bochup that it's sometimes annoying but maybe it's because I feel too uptight about certain issues. I've now know how to handle him so there's hardly any chance for me to feel annoyed. Yay!

Quizilla

2006-03-02T14:59:00.000+08:00

I was feeling pretty bo liao today & my gal friend ask me to check out Quizilla and to also take the below quizz. Pretty interesting! I took a couple of quizzes and it was fun!

The first one I took was What ancient bloodline do you have?

You have Elvin blood: The blood in your veins is that of the elves. The most noble of all bloods. The Elves are very honest and wise, and you share that aspect with them. You are a very fun and kind person and anyone who meets you immediately feels safe when youre around. You are a great person and an even better friend. Dont ever change for anyone.

The second quiz is cool too! What Anne Rice Vampire Are You? Waaaa...

This one is hilarious! What kind of hentai are you?

Youre a kinky kind of person, sticks and stones may break your bones but whips and chains excite you. You like your hentai to have a bit of flare and bondage, and anything with leather is a plus. Youre a wild lover and want a spark in your sex life, which you easily find a way to fill.

ROFLMAO!

Oh my god !!! Drool

2006-03-01T21:17:00.000+08:00

THE MILKSHAKE IS BACK !!!!!!

MacDonald's milkshake is back in town!!! Woohoo!! I want to faint le!!!
I have to get my hands on the Chocolate Milkshake !!!!!!!!!!!

Oh my god.. life is a bliss.

Kia Kia @ Far East Plaza

2006-03-01T17:27:00.000+08:00

Working in Tuas kinda allow my dress code to be very casual.. I no need to wear very formal and can also wear jeans on weekdays.. no one bother..

But if I go for job interview, I couldn't possibly wear what I normally wore to work right ? I also don't have the appropriate attire to turn up for an interview. So yesterday me and hubby went down to Milady in Far East Plaza to buy some tops with collar and a jacket. I was surfing the net the other day and found that they sell plus size clothes. If I had known their existence earlier, I wouldn't have spent a bomb at Dorothy Perkins and Marks & Spencer for my CNY clothes! Duh! Doh! Kns! I feel like kicking myself to the south pole..*bonk self*

Anyway, I also went to look for our cute Wenwen and she was wearing a superbly nice blink-blink belt! Very chio and blink-blink bright siah! The belt totally matches her blink-blink Levi's jean and she was wearing it that day leh!!! P.S. Qiaoyun, you can also get that blink-blink belt! Will match your blink-blink stylo pink sunglasses! Mega Superstar Babe Inc!!

Ok, anyway again (I realise I sidetrack a lot. Am I constantly deviating from the topic? Hmm.. Am I?), I had fun in Milady and bought a collar top and a jacket. The sweet sweet thing is that Milady was having a sale and I bought my stuff with a whopping 35% discount! Woota! I am delirious!!! ^_^

After my spree, hubby and I went to dinner at a Zhi Char mini-restaurant on the 4th floor of the shopping centre. I am really surprised at how both of our food turned out. It tasted absolutely delicious! Hubby told me this is Cantonese cooking style, no wonder la, I really love love love it! Gonna go back there to try other food on their menu. :) What a perfectly happy ending to my day at Orchard. ^_^

On the way home, I suddenly remember another sweet sweet thing is that I decided and am going to buy a birkie thongs soon!!
I am flying over the moon!! Life is heavenly!!

Time For A Change!

2006-03-01T16:25:00.000+08:00

Yoohoo~ I have an official announcement to make..

*clear throat*
*drum roll*

Wang Wang Is Now Officially In The Midst Of Looking For A New Job !!! So, for those jobhunter and employer, come get Wang Wang !!!

I've been working in my current job for 3 years. It's been a long loong time and is the longest I have ever stayed in any job. Time to move on for more challenges and better prospect.. and more $$$ !!!

I look at the jobs I applied and I feel pretty amazed. I machiam running 'The Amazing Race' in Singapore siah. From Mandai to Kaki Bukit, from Bukit Batok to Tiong Bahru, from Raffles Place/Shenton Way to Bedok.

Wa...

Maybe is I getting desperate.. want to hurry hurry get a job before the tmd boss comes back from business trip. Aiya, get your ideal job more important leh! Dun rush rush get a job can?!?!?! TMD!! wang wang u relac a bit la can !?!?!?!?! Ok.

This is my wish as of now..

WangWang get Super WangWang! Wangwang will get very good job! WangWang will add oil! Gambatae!

Sooo Sleepyyy

2006-02-28T13:57:00.000+08:00

Came to work today and my IT colleague told me that the server said bye bye and there is no eta when the server will be back to normal.

All my work and stuff are saved in the shared directory from the server. This means : NO WORK CAN BE DONE! Hehe. Yay!

But I am extremely bored to death now and my eyelid are like now weighing more than 100 tons. ZzZzZzZzZz~~

Being surfing the net since morning and I feel my eyes want to pop out. I'm know extremely bored to death and my eyelid are like now weighing 100tons each side.. /yawn.

Hurry.. time fly to 6pm pls~~

I'm ok now..

2006-02-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

I'm fine now.. went for a 1 hour excercise and more or less walked off my anger and disappointment. Pretty much settled now.

I will just let it be and whatever happen will happen. Nothing much I can do since it has happened..
Come what may..

Peace out..

I am furiously mad!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-02-20T20:57:00.000+08:00

I am so angry !!!!!!! My blood is boiling !!!!!!!
I want to rant! I want to rave!
I have the urge to pull all my hair !!!
I am feeling so freaking damn snappy now!!!!!!!

Should I be forgiving and have a more open heart ?!?!?!?!?!?!
Should I actually be feeling happy for them NOW ?!?!?!?!?!?!
Maybe I should be elated and jumped crazyily with joy but I am feeling so confused now!!!!!

GODAMNIT !!!!!!!! FCUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My sister in-law went into labour and gave birth to a baby today at 8.15pm.
At 8.45pm, hubby received a call from my father in-law saying she had given birth and just wanted to let him know.
Both my father and mother in-law are now at the hospital.
WHAT BULLSH*T IS THIS ?????????

No doubt that we still heard the news but shouldn't my brother in-law be calling my hubby and tell him this good news???? For God's sake, my hubby is his ELDER BROTHER!
What the hell does he treat my hubby as ???? AN OUTSIDER ????

The way they treating us are like we are just SOME INSIGNIFICANT HUMAN BEINGS EXISTING IN THIS WORLD AND JUST THAT WE HAVE SOME BLOOD RELATION AND LEGALLY BINDING MARRIAGE LAWS!!!

Don't tell me that his brother was too overjoyed and only called his FATHER to tell him this freaking news! I bet my brother in-law called tons of HIS friends also!!!!!

Throughout her pregnancy period, I was really happy for her! When we met up, I was chatting happily with her about her baby and kept touching that tummy to feel any baby's movement. Both of them KNEW how I felt! I really wanted to feel happy for her but HOW SHOULD I BE FEELING HAPPY NOW !

What the hell! I am extremely exasperated!!!! I am so uptight!!!!

I feel so cast away.. so isolated from that family..

Deep down, I knew that my father in-law favoured my sister in-law a lot a lot. She have a much better qualification than me, she have a very sweet mouth and know how to please our father in-law and make him very happy. In fact, both she and her hubbby knew how to make him delighted! I'm just being me who don't know how to curry favour people.

When we went for family trip, my father in-law will brag and boast about my sister in-law's achievement to STRANGERS over dinner.. "She is from XXX , am now a XXX, she was awarded XXX, her so-and-so is XXX, very famous!"

Many times over family dinner, he will "XXX, eat this, XXX eat that" All his attention are just focus on her and her husband. I will sit there quietly enjoying my dinner while my hubby squeezed my hands. I felt hurt and invisible and basically transparent. Even my mother in-law came up to me and tell me not to mind what my father in-law did and that he is just such a person.

When my hubby and I were late for family dinner, my father in-law always face black black and they were already eating when we arrived. BUT when my brother & sister in-law were late, me and my hubby have to often wait for them to come and my father in-law always greeted them with a smile!!!!!!!

Should I be totally ok with this bullsh*t ?!?!?!

I knew I only had a Diploma, not a sweet talker and not jovial or talkative in front of them! I don't know what to say or what to do to make my father in-law so happy that he is over the moon. I am just an ordinary person surviving in this world! This is what I am when facing them! BECAUSE I WAS CONSTANTLY FEELING PROCRASTINATED AND I FELT I AM NOT EXISTING AT ALL !!

I reached my limit as a human being, as their "sister in-law", as a "daughter in-law". My inferiority complex is kicking in and I need to vent out. In their eyes, I am not considered a family member? In their eyes, is my status just still being a girlfriend ??? WHOM AM I IN THEIR EYES??

My hubby is mad mad mad too! He knew how my father in-law treats them and that's why he always didn't say too much stuff to them. But he can control his anger, I can't!!!!!!

My 5 years plus of frustration and feeling that I have bottled up is exploding!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel like crying now.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bye Bye Privacy

2006-02-17T16:38:00.000+08:00

I'm packing my stuff.

The company I'm working in have just completed the second phase of the expansion and we are going to move to the other building next Monday.

Presently, me and my other three colleagues are sitting inside a room and my work station is situation on the opposite end of the door. It's a cosy little corner by the window. If I am feeling tired, I will just look out and gaze at the sky and greeneries. Through here, I can do my personal stuff like working on my blog, check email, surf web, chit-chat on forums etc. But when I shift to the new building, it will be entirely different. The company adopted an open concept and whatever you are doing can be seen by others. Boo!

So I'm afraid that I can't do my personal stuff frequently and freely now. Sigh...

Bye Privacy. I hope I can meet you soon!

Weird? Whose weird?? Me ???

2006-02-10T09:26:00.000+08:00

I have been tagged !!!

Our cute pesky comprain queen Wen has tagged Studygroup peeps to post 5 weird things of ourself and it's my turn now to talk about myself..

What part of me is weird? How weird am I?

1) I absolutely hate the sound of metal knocking against each other or when stainless steel spoon or fork drop on the floor.
The cling cling clang clang sound is utterly dreadful and hateful. That high pitch will often send shivers down my spine and I always had major goosebumps.

The worst experience I had was in Korea, Korean used stainless steel cutlery and even the rice and soup bowl is also made from stainless steel. My every single meal during that Korea trip gave me goosebumps. It was an absolutely horrifying experience.

2) I love to eat rice with Keropok (prawn crackers) and a small dip of light soy sauce.
I will just snap off a small piece from the Keropok, spread rice on top of the Keropok and then drop a tiny dip of light soy sauce on the rice.

IT'S ABSOLUTELY HEAVENLY AND DIVINE !!!

My mum says I inherited this weird eating habit from my late grandpa. The thing is, my grandpa passed away before I was even born. Thus, I attributed this eating habit to his genes.

3) I love horror movies and I loved to be scared out of my wits.
When I am watching horror shows in cinema or at home, I will cover my ears but my eyes will be wide open. I will cowered over to my hubby.

You know, that moment when you can feel that the murderer/evil spirit is going to appear and silence the victim in a totally brutally manner, it's terribly exciting !!!!! I was totally expecting that to happen and am waiting for the evildoers to trounce on the poor souls.

But when it happens, I screamed out loud in fear and jumped in fright. Haha!!

Very often, I was the one making my hubby scared because my reaction was damned freaking big. I'm one of the first few people or the only one to scream and people in the cinema will laugh.. evil beings..

My favorite show is The Ring I and I watched it 3 times.. I got totally spooked, screamed until I lost my voice. Had nightmares and was frightened to stay at home alone as I'm afraid that Sadako will crawl out from my TV. Afraid of the dark and need to be in the companion of friends always.

4) I day-dream a lot. They are all nonsensical yet happy.
Some of the clouds that I have built so far are :
- Lun GeGe (Jay Chou) and Aniki Jin Chen Wu are fighting over me but can't have me as I am married.
- Lun GeGe wrote a song for me and his love for me.
- Chen Wu said we were lovers in our past life and our next next life will be lovers again. (I told him hubby had already reserved my next life).
- Very often, I will travel to Hong Kong for timsum, Italy for spaghetti, held parties in my Scotland castle or my private island near Maldives. Go for horse-riding in Australia. Fly to Japan in my plane for some good old SKII spa and facial sessions.
- Dreamt that I am a princess or damsel in distress and a Knight in Shiny Armor will rescue me from Mother Evil. We lived happily ever after.

Imagine the face of my hubby when I told him this.

5) I always pull my hair to feel the texture. It's a habitual thing. I will feel the texture and if it's extremely coarse, I will put that strand out. Don't ask my why, I JUST DO IT...

I hope the above revelation wouldn't let anyone perceive me as a weirdo.. If it does, at the very least, I am UNIQUE !!!

Buenos Propósitos de Año Nuevo

2006-02-07T09:46:00.000+08:00

I love Spanish.. To me, Spanish sounded so smooth, slick and flowery..

So, to kickoff my first 2006 post for the Chinese New Year, I'm gonna have a ultra cool español title. Stylo milo siah!!!

Buenos Propósitos de Año Nuevo means New Year Resolution.

For me, a new year resolutions means a commitment that I'm making in a bid to change my lifestyle, for the better. Plans that I made are established for a regular short or medium-term time intervals.

Sounds pretty steady pom bi-bi and very promising right??

Ya right.. As if I have fulfilled all the past resolutions made so solemnly at that point in time! Every year, my resolutions revolves around the same unaccomplished stuff.
1) Lose weight (my bigga bigga priority)
2) Start to save money (my super bigga bigga priority!)
3) Take up language course (starting with Japanese, Spanish, Italian)
4) Book a date for advanced theory, take up driving lessons
5) Get a damn well-payed job in a damn good working environment and boss/superior recognise my effort.

But this year, after going through some stuff, I've changed my mindset and I only have ONE resolution now.

I want to work on my health and make my body stronger.

I only have one explantion for that.. So here goes :

On the second day of lunar new year, I discovered to my horror that 3 boils have surfaced on my body. The next day, the boils swelled rapidly, the circumference is almost the same as the size of a fist. My hubby was worried and with my approval, he started to squeeze the boils so the pus will come out. Well the pus did came out and he almost used up the entire box of tissue. The pus burst out from the swollen area and it was like never ending. I really got scared.

We thought that after the pus came out, things will turn for the better. Sadly, it didn't.
Couple of days later, I had a total of 10 boils on my body and had developed a fever by then. We decided that we had to seek a second opinion (previously I had seen a doctor for a suspected cysts on the back of my body) and made an appointment with the doctor who had many months ago removed the cysts on my knee.

The doctor after having seen my condition diagnosed that my skin resistance to virus or insect bites and my immunity system is extremely weak and needed immediate medical help. He prescribed antibiotics, anti-inflammatory and anti-swelling medicine for me to eat and antiseptic cum antibacterial wash for my skin. He warned me not to squeeze out any pus. I now know that the pus that flowed out was not from the skin abcess. The pus that flowed out was from the infected area collecting around the actual damaged tissue. It isn't making my condition better. This skin abscess can prevent deeper tissues from functioning properly. The infection can spread though my bloodstream and may cause severe complications.

At that moment, I was really sad and lost for words. I am already very depressed seeing all those boils on my body while staring at myself in the mirror. I looked utterly hideous.

The doctor seeing my facial expression comforted me and say all is not lost. If I really needed an operation after one week of medication and wash, he will cut and drain the abscess to clean the area and control the infection.I will also have to take Vitamin C and antibiotics and use prescribed wash for six months to build up my skin resistance and immunity system. I will also have to watch my diet and he encouraged me to do exercise like brisk walking as it will help greatly.

We chatted for a while more before I head for home with my one week supply of medicine. I felt torn to pieces and was on the verge of a breakdown. My health failing on me.

The next day, the Studygroup peeps came for CNY gathering. I told a couple of girlfriends about my condition and I really felt like crying but I hold back. At that point in time, I felt that things will get better after I get this thing out of my chest and it really did. As we were chatting about other stuff later, playing poker and in between, my mood lightened and I really didn't feel anymore depress. It's a good thing they came and rescue me from the abyss. Watching their shocked and comical expression when they tio tiang really make me laugh my heads off. (Sorry guys, I didn't mean to do this at the expense of your $$$ !) Thanks for the emotional comfort!

So, NOW, as I am posting this entry. I'm on the fifth day of my medicination. I went for brisk walks twice with my hubby and another couple who just lived few blocks away from me. (It really felt good to exercise! Damn!) I've watched my diet and eat many fruits. I've loaded my body with vitamin pills and drank plenty of water. The boils have reduced in size and I know my body is putting up a strong fight and battling against the virus. Also, my studygroup peeps have been giving me suggestions on fruits I should eat and how I should detox (even though some methods are utterly lame ass!) have really touched me a lot..

Without a good health, I won't even need to think of the other resolutions that I made in the past year. There isn't even a need to think how I am gonna enjoy my life and have a fulfilling lifestyle.

So my heartfelt and solemn resolution now is To Have a Good and Strong Health.

The desire and need to make this resolution a success is burning inside me. I'm fully confident to say that I know I won't play play or give up. This will be a long term resolution and I will prevail!

So, if you can, I need some emotional and mental support!!!! /bear hug

Happy Chinese New Year!

2006-01-27T11:23:00.000+08:00

Two more days and it's Lunar New Year!

I will be busy during this period and won't be updating my blog. So, I take this opportunity to wish everyone the best of health, collect more angbao, win more money. May this year be a prosperous and smooth-sailing 2006. Wishes will be granted, everyone will Xin Fu !!!

WO HUI EXTREMELY WANG WANG !!! DA JIA YE WANG WANG !!!

Enjoy this clip : CNY Greetings

Frens..

2006-01-26T15:49:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, my hubby asked me a question :

“Who is your best friend?”

Of course, he didn’t ask this out of the blue. Just a couple of days ago, he went out with his two best friends for dinner and drinks. He was telling me how the gathering went and how he was picked up by a gal. I was listen intently especially on that stranger gal when he shoot me that question. I wasn't prepared for that question, got a shock and just replied :

“You lor” …

And he replied, “Husband and best friend are different” … I kept silence and hurrily go to kitchen to do my laundry stuff..

That night, as I was lying on the bed staring at my hubby, I am kinda envious of him. He had known his two best friends (a guy and gal) since secondary school and they are very close up till now. I know that due to their busy schedule, they weren’t able to meet up often but their thoughts are always with each other and they genuinely care for each other.

I then began to think of who are my best friends. I started to list them out mentally.
After 5 mins and having erased my hubby from the ‘Best Friend’ list, my list show a big fat ZERO.

I felt a teeny weeny bit of sadness and could literally feel my heart sank. I could feel the pain in my heart.

Does one have or can have best friend for life? Is the existence of a human living in this world considered worthy and valuable if he/she have a best friend for life?

In times of trouble or when I need to pour my woes and sadness, who can I seek other than my hubby? Who truly appreciate me for whom I am and our love for each other is purely platonic. Who truly believes in me, for whatever the nonsense I deliver. Is there anyone that I felt our relationship was built based on laughter, happiness, sadness etc and we will last a long time?

Again, my answer is : No one now. Not anymore.

I used to have 2 best friends on different times of my life.

During my childhood, I had a best friend for 7 years. We knew each other in Primary One. Things went wrong gradually as we grow up and began to developed a more complicated thinking. Even though we really have a clash of personality, we still stuck out for each other.

When I was 12, a guy jumped into both of our life and he showed me how fragile my relationship with her was. We entered into a love-triangle relationship (Oh, so drama-mama!). She asked me to come to her place, we had a huge fight where she just didn’t believe that I didn’t have any interest in that guy. It ended unpleasantly at her place as I just stormed out of her house. Couple of days later, she called me on the pretext of wanting to apologies to me in person so the forgiving me arrived at her place. I was deceived. I was corned and beaten up by her and a bunch of gals she knew from outside. I put up a fight but couldn’t win as it was many to one. I was physically thrown out of her house and she told me to never contacted her anymore.

And I did.

Fast forwarding to the future, I knew a gal later through MIRC.. We were really comfortable with each other and grew close extremely fast. At that point in time, I thought I could have a friend who really understands and appreciate me and treated me as soulmate. We lasted only 4 years sadly when we had a major clash in marriage views and we stopped contacting each other.

At this point, I felt some drops of tears. Am I not worthy of someone’s attention and platonic love? I felt depressed.. maybe deep down, I'm pessimistic.

Refusing to feel depress further, I thought of my friends from Studygroup. They are really a bunch of extremely good friends. We really got close to each other even though the majority of us knew each other for less than a year. /hug Studygroup. I invested a lot of my feelings, time and emotion into them. I truly wanted us to be lifelong pals..really I wish for this..

But I know I won’t choose one or two out from this group and have them as my best friends. This will split the group. I want all of us to be close together.

I have a lot a lot of extremely good friends, good friends etc. Just that there’s a blank in the Best Friend section of my heart.

Maybe as my life moves on, I will have someone who I can introduce and say, “This is my best friend. Pls say hi!”

To all those who have best friend, I envy you all. From the bottom of my heart, I truly madly deeply really wish you and your best friend will be with each other other very close and be best friend for life.

Wang Wang Piao Piao Le !

2006-01-25T12:14:00.000+08:00

To welcome & celebrate Xin Nian, I went to do my hair last Saturday.

Very Mei Mei !!! *Muack muack my hair*

My good friend from Studygroup, Minou recommend me to go register with Les Dames. This forum has all kinds of stuff for the gals and is ultra cool!! It's from Les Dames that I found the salon where I did my hair. Thanks Min min sweety for this lobang.. /hug /kiss !

Usually on a Saturday, I will zzz until 3pm (latest! I swear) but the hiao hiao me actually woke up at 7.30am for the appointment at 9am! I am very impressed with myself! I didn't laze around and I even make coffee for hubby!

I guess this time round, Hair Piao Piao has won the fight against Beauty Sleep ba and I am eager for the makeover. Hahaha..

Anyway, after 6 hours of intensive work on my hair, I finally emerge a new person! This look will go so well with the earth-brown top and santa fe skirt I purchased to wear on the first day of Chinese New Year! Weeeeee..............

A few people from Studygroup got the chance to see the new look on Sat when I attended Uncle's housewarming. Wen Wen and Hevun likes it but I didn't bother asking Erwin because I know what he will say just by looking at his face! Haha, sorry beng beng! Don't feel hurt if I no ask you ok~

I really must say it's very nice and Hubby loves it too.

Anyway, I won't reveal my hairstyle and the colour, I will be meeting with some peeps for Lo Hei this Friday and they will see..

Those who want to catch up with me and see my new look, don't shy shy, book an appointment with me and chia me makan! Yippy!

Tonight, I will sayang my hair and lavish her with treatment~

N00b Blogger In Da House!!! ^_^

2006-01-23T15:36:00.000+08:00

I can't believe what I just did.
I have finally registered an account with blogspot.
Woota!!! Yo momma!!! /dance

The sun looks damn sunny and the weather is perfect, from inside the office that is.
On a spur of the moment, I decided, since I so got many stuffs to do in office but I just don't want to do it, why not I create a blog account and have fun!
(can pretend pretend busy also. Hehe!)

So here I am now. I remember I used to tell the rest of the Studygroup peeps that I won't have much things to talk or kaypoh about. It's either I talk a lot in here or it's the Circle of Trust's forum. I guess I will balance both.

Hiya everyone! Here I am at last! Catching up with this blog blog thingy! Silvermist and Talin, don't be a meanie and post ebil comments ok?

For my first ever post, I shall make it short and sweet..
Time for a smoke break, my colleague want to kaypoh kaypoh with me. Tata!